Internal Movement Arts Academy

I know that many people will start forming counter thoughts to this message already right here in the beginning. And I can hear all those thoughts. Nevertheless I will write my words. Since I was very young I had a different relationship with illness, then the world of western medicine, modern society and even modern human suggests. Already very young I understood that being Ill means that a great disbalance has occurred within me, through experiences and my own incapacity to digest them well. When I fell sick, it very soon was clear to me that it was time to be quiet and listen to that which wanted to be heard. It was undoubtedly a matter of great importance to do so. I knew somewhere deep within me that the only way to heal is to surrender to the vehemence of the body at this moment, when it´s only way was to have created a lockdown to finally be heard. What I couldn´t name and grasp at that time was that it wasn´t only my body that was trying to enforce affection. In fact it was the Soul´s last card to play, after being untendered for so long. After the Soul was trying to clear itself in vain and couldn´t express itself, the body created a situation of retreat from mundane life and functionality, only so my attention could finally become inbound. How else could I answer to that than to listen ? That was my feeling. The least I could do was to become humble in that moment and take the time. I also have to thank the great care of my mother in those moments, who taught me that it was ok to lay low. What none knew at that time was that through her being ok with me being ill, she created the base for trusting into the process. It is not common for people to be ok with illness. None ever wants to be ill, mostly we try to return to ´normal´as fast as possible. But my mum never pushed too hard to get me going again. It gave me the feeling of being able to take time. And time, or timelessness, is what you need especially when you are unwell. Already in my teenage years it seemed normal to me to move through the process and that the process was in fact fair and appropriate. Today I know that locking down the physical and energetic system to create a passage of listening is the Souls last resort when it has already endured a great deal of unlovingness. We have to understand that the Soul, being God´s essence, is wired to pure Love and exists in a constant homogenic feedback system towards that Love. So everything we encounter throughout life, faces that feedback towards the Love of the Souls original fabric. I dare to say that when we would live completely in harmony with our Soul and God, that we would not encounter unwellness and illness. In my momentary understanding it is our disposition with the Soul that creates disruption also in the material life. After all the Soul is the most superior part of our being, if we bring the composition of a human being into the form of a hierarchy, the Soul is the greatest aspect. After the Soul, one step lower comes the energetic body with all it´s energy systems, pools and chakras. Only then comes the physical body. That means the Soul is the ruling organ, everything that is not in harmony around the Soul, gives feedback downwards into the other two bodies. Since we are organic beings, that equation also goes the other way. Things we encounter in the physical, mental world meet the Soul through our emotions. Actually emotions are the Souls way to respond to those encounters. If our emotions would flow free, there would be no such thing as dark spots and disposition and illness. It is our holding back and controlling, for various reasons, which stops the healthy flow and locks the feelings around the Soul, so that it creates a shadow or a dark spot through which the Souls joy and Love cannot flow free anymore. The Soul wants to free itself, so these dark spots give feedback downwards into the energetic system and the physical. We also attract all kinds of things in life, only so that we become aware of those painful things hidden and so that we may have the opportunity for resolution and release. Thank the love of God life works exactly according to those laws and that feedback system is actually Her love towards us. I cannot agree with the perspective we have created in our societies, that the body and it´s needs is a annoying disturbance to it´s normal functionality and that it has to be fixed quickly. This perspective completely disregards the fact that we are a being with Soul. I can hear peoples minds screaming at this point : but what about emergencies ? This message is dangerous ! I can calm your horses right away, in no way do I suggest what to do when we are ill, how to behave, or that we shouldn´t go into medical care or to abandon western medicine as such. It all has it´s place and purpose. When there is help needed, then get the help to sustain your life. Why wouldn´t we ? I would like to raise some awareness that even and especially already ´little´ illnesses are a form of communication. Maybe if we would listen a little more and take care of our wellbeing as a whole, in perspective to the Soul´s love, we don´t need the ´big blow´ later down the line. After all isn´t it a beautiful path to follow to take time to investigate into the matter deeper and create some quietness to actually listen to what your Soul needs ? The more we learn a respectful way towards ourselves, we also pass it on to others and maybe at some point we will see those principles of lovingness reflected in society as a whole.